Here’s the thing about forks… (Update 2/27/13)

Just a quick update, ‘Pressers!

I got the job as a social media marketing coordinator. Well, since it is only bringing in so much income at the moment, I am inclined to call my employers “clients” instead. Details to come, but for now, I must present my marketing strategy.


Here’s the thing about forks…

“Two steps forward, one step back” is an age-old idea I can’t say I have ever really practiced until recently. I found myself walking towards an end I simply did not want. Whatever was left of my heart was battered and broken. I found my reasons to continue on this road flawed and flimsy, but they were sill reasons to move forward. It was only a matter of time before I became complacent, and while I still may have found some happiness and fulfillment in the end, I had left another path virgin, unexplored – undoubtedly treacherous but potentially so much more.

It took months to realize that it was still within my power to go back to the last fork in the road, and still more months before i mustered up the strength and courage to turn back. These were months of family turbulence, depression, and desperation.

So here I am, having taken the first few steps on this new trail – scared and scarred, but healing. I hope and pray I have been wise and will continue to be wise with my decisions. You can only do this so many times in your life – at least at this magnitude.

I have a handful of creative projects on the table and an interview on Monday to become a social media marketing coordinator. Wish me luck, ‘Pressers.

And goodnight.

Self-Affirmation: Excuse me as I Stroke my Ego

Applying for jobs can be pretty disheartening when every rejection essentially means either (a) you weren’t good enough for the position, or (b) there was someone better than you. After recently taking stock of my abilities and goals, I realized that I’m kind of awesome — but I need to believe so if I expect to convince anyone else. So here’s the breakdown:

I graduated with my BS in Civil Engineering from Loyola Marymount University in 4 years – a field some take 5 or 6 years to complete.

I did so while also being fully-immersed in theatre and performance art with leading roles in some productions.

I passed the FE/EIT Exam on my first try with no prep classes. (I went to ONE day of ONE class and rightly deemed it a waste of time.)

I’m currently getting certified as an AutoCAD Technician and will likely finish the course a full week sooner than most of my classmates.

I think creatively. I write effectively. I connect with new people easily and broadly.

I can act, sing, juggle, play the piano and solve ordered differential equations. I can bake pies and build coffee tables from scratch. I can make people laugh. I can rock a spreadsheet. I often ponder the theories of non-linear time travel in Doctor Who and quote lines from Community. I can clear 40 lines in less than 1:00.00 playing Tetris. I rock climb.

I’m clever. I’m interesting. I’m a generally good person.

There SHOULD be something out there for me. I figure I have a better chance of finding it if I go out there and look versus keeping my head up my own ass.

Yes, I’m kind of awesome, and you and I had better believe it.

Well, 2013, that was an interesting start.

You and I met quietly, somberly that first night of January. I was glad you had finally arrived, but I was uncertain of what I should expect from you. I still am. This past month has been… I’m not sure what to make of it.

I’m still dealing with my parents’ divorce, which has recently picked up speed. They met for the first time in months with their respective aides – my mom with her legal representation, and my dad with his usual ignorance. Talks continue and I’m just glad custody isn’t an issue. I’ve been begging to be kept out of it, but I’m still bound to be affected by it all. I may delve into deeper “feels” later, but let’s just keep our catch-up session broad for now.

So I’m back to square one with the job-search – good, old, cursed square one. That opportunity with MAKE Magazine was an amazing offering – right goodly way to start off 2013. I was disappointed (to say the least) that it didn’t pan out for me, but I’m thankful – surprised even – that I got as far as I did. I would have been so good for that project, and it really is a shame it didn’t progress.

In the meantime, my friend picked me up as her Marketing Director in charge of Social Media and Recruitment Campaigns for her music school. It’s a start-up so it’s only a part-time gig for right now, but it could be a path towards something more solid. In the mean time, I at least have something of significance to put on my resume.

Also I’m working on my AutoDesk AutoCAD Certification at CSULB. One class in but I’m already ahead, 7-week class the professor said I would probably be able to finish in 6 at my rate. You know what? I do deserve to brag a bit. Which I will… in a separate post.

Well, 2013, that’s pretty much it for the major items. Other than that I’ve been re-connecting with old friends, making new ones, getting back into rock climbing, getting back into shape, “making” in my small space, salvaging old furniture I’ve picked up off the side of the road.

I’m back and forth between sleepless nights and bedridden days, between anxiety attacks and fits of confidence, between surrounding myself with friends and being a hermit. I suppose there is some semblance of balance there. I suppose that’s alright for now.

Onward, 2013.

Be back in a few.

To my fellow ‘Pressers,

I apologize for the lack of new content this week. This past week has been a little rough. But worry not! I’ll be back next week with posts galore.

Until then, please feel free to browse previous posts. I’m sure you’re bound to find a couple gems.

Thanks for bearing with me, guys. See you all next week. Maybe sooner.